Don't stop till you get enough

Today my irritability came to an end. Which happened because basically today was one of those days when everything just went wrong. Like it's really hot, I was sweating really hard, my skin is terrible, I couldn't get enough done at work and then this student who was just SO SLOWWWWWWWWWWWWWW came and needed me to run around and do things and it was so difficult because he talked slow, couldn't keep up with how fast I was walking and just everything - and I just kept getting more and more angry until a light basically went off in my head.

I was like, ok, this guy has been sent to me for a reason to basically let me know that hey, the more irritated you get the more things are going to mess up for you. The more the universe is going to make your life harder. So you just need to chill.

And then it was like I just stopped being a jackass and breathed in deep and I've been fine ever since. Which is fabulous.

So then when I came home this evening I told my mom about my epiphany and how fantastic it all was. She loved me story, praised me for what a clever girl I am. I then told her the story again. And again. At which point it was no longer as interesting and she was also no longer as impressed.

Which brings me to another realization that I'm just one of those people who doesn't understand that sometimes saying less is saying more. And if I get a laugh from a joke, I'll say it twice more just to see if it'll get more laughs. Which it never does because at that point, it's old. But do I get that? Nope. I mean it's been 24 years and I'm still that person that repeats stories, over and over and over. I should have learnt not to do that by now.

But I haven't. Haha.

Terrible to say but...

I'm a little tired of all the back and forth the parents have been doing about the planned trip to the US. It's getting really old and I honestly don't understand what all the fuss is about. I'm just feeling so frustrated.

That on top of the fact that I've been irritable all weekend, basically dropping f-bombs anytime I was in my car and another car/driver pissed me off, and just snapping at everything. Maybe its the weather, which is our usual humid and hot
31 degree Celsius weather.

Anyway I think I just better calm down, read the book I checked out from the library and just blehhhhhh

The Good, The Bad and The Unnecessary

The Good
- Going out with some lovely people from work whom I've never hung out with before.
- Watching Iron Man 2 with them.
- Robert Downey Jr.
- Scarlett Johannson's body
- Gwyneth Paltrow's body
- Actually having a life for once

The Bad
- Our dinner at Station Kopitiam. Super spicy and super tasteless.
- How sleepy I'm feeling right now.
- The mashed up plot of Iron Man 2.

The Unnecessary
- The teenager in the same aisle's constant commentary on the movie to her friend. And the fact that she sometimes talked to the screen. What she really needed was to realize that first of all, the theater is not her living room, and that secondly, we could all hear her too clearly. And she also just needed someone coughmecough to break her face. But since that would have... consequences so I guess not.
- Me going over the entire evening in my head,hoping that I didn't say anything that would make them hate me...

Which segues nicely into - what the hell is wrong with me? Why can't I have a conversation with a person without second guessing whether I did it right? Right now I'm wondering if I dominated the conversation too much? Was my going on about Robert Downey too much? Should I not have mentioned the word poop? I just don't know. But mostly I know that I should just be myself, which I was, and let everyone just think what they need to think because ultimately that's the only way that I can be ok with myself and this world.

Maybe I'm just sleepy. And maybe it's just that Kinder Bueno I ate. Man, tomorrow is going to be a long day.

The weekend weekend weekend...

This weekend has been good, like really good. And full of things I don't usually do. Like watching movies. Going to the temple. Eat some chocolate. You know things that people normally do.

Anyway yesterday I went to Pavilion with Ching Wen, Laetitia and Yati. We ate some heinously bad food at Wong Kok Char Chan Teng. It's basically fashioned as this semi hip hangout for young (Chinese) kids to eat Hong Kong style street food. All of us ordered like hot plate meals and the meat was horribly tough and the sauce was also very subpar. The drinks were good though. So our conclusion? Eat noodles when in a Hong Kong style eatery. And actual street food type dishes.

I went to MANGO and also picked up this super cute sweater. Will post picture below:


Ching Wen picked it out. I'm convinced that boys are good at shopping for women's clothes because they tend to gravitate towards the simplest thing. Also because they kind of don't care at all they tend to be a bit objective.


Then we watched Robin Hood. Which was bad. Seriously. Basically here's what was wrong.

1. It was not Gladiator
2. The dialogue
3. The editing
4. It was not Gladiator
5. Too many characters
6. Very bad scene flow
7. Very overdone story with Robin Longstride's father
8. It was not Gladiator

It had some things going for it though. And that thing was Russell Crowe.

I mean seriously that man could not get more charismatic if he tried. Also he's TOTALLY not a fatty anymore, he is buff and looking good.

But the thing is I just felt that the whole movie was just not what it could have been. Obviously I had to compare it with Gladiator because hell it's the same lead and the same director. The verdict? The casting was fantastic, the set and costumes were amazing and even the premise was fine. But the whole story was just so hokey and the editing almost felt so rushed and just bad.

What's happening to movies nowadays? Why can't they live up to the movies of the past, or even recent past like Gladiator? Like A Beautiful Mind? Like even Independence Day? Movies just don't have that quality and just feel unfinished nowadays. It makes me sad and afraid because one of the best things about our society is movies and storytelling and now that its become such crap, what do we have left? Global warming, wars and consumerism? I don't even know.

Anyway that's me on my soapbox.

Apart from that I ate THE BEST chocolate croissant from The Loaf (it has custard in it1) and then went home.

Today my mum and I actually went to the Geeta Ashram in PJ. The Geeta Ashram is basically this center, almost like a temple for devotees of people who follow this Guru who propagates the reading of the Geeta, our holy book, as basically the best way to live life/be Hindus, etc. We went there because basically it's getting to a point where my family is just so insular that we need more connections in life. My mum is North Indian and I think she's just so disconnected from that here that its important for us to reach out. Anyway it was actually really nice. The people were really nice and while I didn't really understand all of the sermon what really resonated with me was their argument that how can someone be spiritual without having any knowledge of the scriptures? And also how can you be devoted without understanding pedagogy. So that really got to me. I think we're planning on going back next week which is cool.

Nothing else really for the rest of today, I just handwashed a ton of my clothes and now I'm writing this. I'm going to go workout and get things sorted for next week - It should be CRAZY BUSY because its the first week of classes!

What I really, really want.

Right now I want
























a yellow pencil skirt

to be content even if nothing exciting is happening


















THIS Chanel Glossimer Gloss

my parents to reach some kind of truce over the squabbling they've been doing our planned US trip
























a flared white skirt

to do more in a day and yet keep it all together

























crisp white shirts for my work wardrobe

to actually reach out and connect with new people and reconnect with existing friends





















to sleep 8 hours a night
















to buy my MAC brushes now!

to be good and reasonable even when the irrational demon inside me wants to be disagreeable for no reason other than the fact that I can.

That's what I want right now.

A quick one

What this blog post needs to be since I need some zzzs desperately. I haven't been sleeping that well this week so far. I'm not sure what it is, I feel a big disconnect between where my head should be and where it is.

Things are going well. I've:
1. Talked the boss about my future - all good stuff
2. Finished applying for my masters
3. I'm actually working out and losing weight
4. I bought the Dior Palette I wanted!!!

I just don't know what's up. Maybe it's just the lack of sleep. So that's why this needs to be quick.

So I bought Crush Glow and so far I'm feeling a bit eh about it.

Two reasons for that I think.

1. The saleswoman was a BITCH. She spent like 15 minutes with the woman who was there before me, barely acknowledging my presence, then attended to the second customer (who fine, was before me) and then when I finally talked to her and told her that hey I've called you before can I please have my eyeshadow, she was all like "Uh... yeah it needs to be brought in from the store" and then proceeded to attend to an older and presumably much richer looking person than me. I thought hey maybe someone is getting my eyeshadow for me. Not so. After she gave that woman her stuff she went to the storeroom and got my palette. I was waiting for literally like 30 minutes. I am never going back to that Dior counter ever, which is sad because it's in Parkson, like 10 minutes for my house.

2. The colors don't seem to pop on my skin. They're pretty but it doesn't seem like its actually showing up. Which might partly be because my brushes suck and also because I don't have eyeshadow primer. I'm debating between ordering Urban Decay Primer Potion from Sephora when I visit the US or just picking up Smashbox Photo Finish Lid Primer from Pavilion.

What to do, what to do...

I'll leave you with terrible pictures of my Dior quint. I had to document my first ever quint!


With the box

It comes with a soft pouch thing

The hard outside case...

...and the lovely colors inside... I dunno... I really want to love it but right now I'm just not feeling it.

Make-up I WANT. Scratch that - NEED

Over the past couple of months I have found myself becoming increasingly OBSESSED with make-up. It all started that one time I spent about RM700 on make-up. It reminded me of two things, 1. That I was once really amazing at doing my make-up (13 years old and piling the layers on) and 2. I am actually a raging shopaholic. Inside. And then that time I was unleashed without my parents in Montreal. All four years in Montreal. Anyway the point is that I discovered or should I say re-discovered my love for make-up and I basically can't get enough.

I voraciously browse through beauty blogs everyday, my favorites being Temptalia, Karen's Makeup and Beauty Blog and The Beauty Look Book. For a more local flavor I look to the Malaysian My Women Stuff or the Singaporean The Rouge Deluxe. All of this browsing has led to me being a serious coveter of make-up.

Now with my measly salary of I can't say, I can barely afford drugstore make-up. But since I've become this make-up fiend I've become a bit of a make-up snob. Which means I can't actually afford or buy anything that I want. So instead what I do is every time I see something I want I write in down in this little notebook I have. A little sad, I know, but the list has become this magnificent thing which I NEED to share. So here goes, I'm guessing it's going to take me a lot of editing and saving before I publish this bad boy.

1. MAC 239 Eye shader

I have really shit brushes. Like fake hair, cheapo brushes. So I know that I basically have to invest in some good stuff. Who makes the best stuff? Judging by the hype, MAC and Shu Uemura. More reviews for MAC are out though, and since I love wearing eyeshadow more than anything else, this brush looks like it would be perfect for all my needs.

2. Shu Uemura Eyelash Curler

What basically every beauty junkie refers to as the holy grail of eyelash curlers. One time when I was in the 7th grade I curled my eye lashes everyday upon discovering what a huge difference it made. This baby was made for me.

3. MAC Nymphette Lipglass

According to the Makeup and Beauty Blog and Temptalia, this is THE neutral lipgloss to have on hand. It's got a pink base and gold sparkles and its supposed to be super flattering on just about everyone. Since I'm on the hunt for the best basics, this seems to fit the bill. Though I'm not too keen on how sticky this MAC gloss is likely to be, it's probably going to be worth the mild discomfort.

4. Bobbi Brown Blush Brush

It seems to be universal, this blush brush is the one to get. New York City Pretty has it on her wishlist, Allure named it as one of the Best Beauty Buys of 2009. It just seems so sturdy and reliable. I wear a lot of blush. I WANT IT.

5. Dior Addict Ultra Gloss

I mean this is basically the gloss to have. Like how Gisele Bundchen is the ubermodel of our time, this would be the ubergloss. It's sparkly, it's crazy shiny and it's crazy expensive. And its evocatively and heartwrenchingly Dior. I haven't yet figured out what color to get but I'm sure whatever it is it will be good.

6. Shu Uemura Gem Glam Pressed Eyeshadow in G Silver
Lately, since I've ACTUALLY been wearing make-up pretty much everyday I've rediscovered how much I love silver on me. Especially as a highlighter under a white frosty pencil under my eyebrows. Basically it gives me this nice base shiny area above my eyes. Right now I'm using a GWP shadow I got from Lancome. It's adequate but its definitely nothing special. What I really want is a lovely shimmery soft silver from Shu Uemura...

7. OPI Nail Polish in Do You Lilac It?

Another thing I've been jone-sing about for ages. A bloody light purple nail polish. I just know that it would look FAMAZING on me. I mean Fantastic and Amazing - thank you. I'm very much about the whole neutral look when it comes to my nails but sometimes it's a little too little so I figure this would be the right not exactly neutral, neutral for me.

8. Bobbi Brown Treatment Lip Shine in SPF 15

The minute I saw sneak peeks of this collection on the multitude of beauty blogs I read I knew that I had to have it. I have no idea what color I want but I know that I must have it. It's neat, it's classy, it has SPF, it's just perfect. It's the embodiment of everything I want to be. In a lipstick. You get the idea.

9. Shu Uemura Natural Brush 20

So I know the website says it's a "cheek brush" or whatever, but Instyle tells me that it's a killer Powder Brush and since I take Instyle pretty seriously that is what it's going to be for me. This is something I'm going to save up for and then when I get it just rub it all over my face. Again and again.

10. Dior Quint in Crush Glow

Dior quints are supposed to be the best in the business. I mean the best quality , most pigmented, most varied shades, most blendable and just the most luscious shadows, period. This particular quint actually started my intense fixation with making these lists and make-up as a whole. When I first saw the promo pick on the Makeup and Beauty Blog I just knew that not only did I have to have it - I was actually going to dish out money and buy the sucker. Which I am. Tomorrow. I've even made 3 crazy stalker calls to my local Dior counter to make sure that it will be in tomorrow.

Until my next Top 10 Make-Up Needs List!

Dini's Day Off

I was supposed to work today, which is a Sunday btw, but instead I got to go home early because basically things were kind of slow which was AWESOME because I was resigned to spending like 10 hours at work being bored out of my mind but instead I went to Subang Parade with my Mom and bought awesome stuff. We were supposed to go get my mother some Kanebo lipstick but she hated all of their lipsticks and everything else that was actually kind of expensive. Anyway I wanted to check out Bobbi Brown's new Treatment Lip Shine SPF 15 but they weren't in stock! I was kind of bothered but instead I just bought the following things:

1. My May copy of Instyle

First of all, ScarJo looks smokin' hot on the cover, I don't even care that I slightly hate her. Loved her in The Island, but that's about it. Also, it's Instyle's Best Beauty Buy issue which comes at the perfect time considering I'm just about losing my mind over my obsession with make-up and since I'm also compiling this crazy Beauty Want/Need list. Turns out one of their Best Buy for Inexpensive Lipstick was the one I just so happened to pick up...

2. L'oreal Colour Riche Lipstick in Pashmina

So I couldn't find a damn picture of the actual color I bought on the internet since they don't seem to make Pashmina for the US or the UK so I took this crappy picture of my lipstick. Anyway its good practice for my promised make-up reviews. Anyway a search for the perfect lipcolor, whether a lipstick or lipgloss, has been consuming me because I can't seem to find anything that's right. It's either too coral, too pink, too red or too brown. Most of the time I just prefer my lips with just Vaseline on in it because I think I have pretty colored lips. This lipstick is perfect because its basically my lip color but a little darker. Also its not too dark so I don't feel like it's too overwhelming or old woman. I still think a bronze/brown/red/pink lipcolor would look good on me but for now this will do.

3. I bought Glee: The Music, Volume 2

I already had Glee: The Music, Volume 1

It's pretty good, I definitely think that the First Volume is superior to the Second but hey, it's Glee! I have to support this show so I had to buy it. So far my favorite songs on it are Imagine That which is sung by the entire cast and Don't Rain of My Parade which is belted out by the incredible Lea Michele.

4. I bought my mum some lipliner from The Body Shop. So I guess that's going to be her present :)

4. Then my mom and I got smoothies from Boost Juice. They were very good

That's about it. I am working on my mega list of beauty wants but I have changes to make since reading Instyle's Best Beauty Buys and I also think that I should maybe not do too many about brushes since they're not all that exciting. I mean they're exciting but they're not shimmer eyeshadow exciting, you know what I mean?