So the other day I snapped at a friend of mine - not a close friend - but still a member of my core friend group and basically told her that I would slap her face for something she said. It was done in a very aggressive manner and it was in response to me already being mad at her for something that I hadn't articulated as well as because I haven't been sleeping very well.
Needless to say she was completely taken aback and was a little quieter after that. In the days that have followed I have realized that she isn't talking to me and that she has been going out of her way to avoid group situations with me. I do now feel badly about the whole thing and figured that I would apologize and explain what had prompted my behavior. The thing is she as been avoiding me so that's a little hard.
I finally just caved and messaged her on Facebook to apologize and she signed off and didn't respond despite doing other stuff on it - so clearly she saw the message. The thing is my immediate response was "Damn her! I'm being the bigger person and apologizing - she should be fine with that!" But really it's completely up to her how she feels about it. If she really doesn't want to go on and be friends with me or if she just needs more time it's really her choice.
And that's the thing when you say things, you can't take back what you've said so you better be sure you can live with the consequences. I feel kinda shitty now but hell I said it - I'm not even that sorry I'm just sorry I was rude about it. But that's life I guess!
And then she messaged me saying she had no idea what I had said and that we're fine. Seriously???
