How to deal with being rude to someone

So the other day I snapped at a friend of mine - not a close friend - but still a member of my core friend group and basically told her that I would slap her face for something she said. It was done in a very aggressive manner and it was in response to me already being mad at her for something that I hadn't articulated as well as because I haven't been sleeping very well.

Needless to say she was completely taken aback and was a little quieter after that. In the days that have followed I have realized that she isn't talking to me and that she has been going out of her way to avoid group situations with me. I do now feel badly about the whole thing and figured that I would apologize and explain what had prompted my behavior. The thing is she as been avoiding me so that's a little hard.

I finally just caved and messaged her on Facebook to apologize and she signed off and didn't respond despite doing other stuff on it - so clearly she saw the message. The thing is my immediate response was "Damn her! I'm being the bigger person and apologizing - she should be fine with that!" But really it's completely up to her how she feels about it. If she really doesn't want to go on and be friends with me or if she just needs more time it's really her choice.

And that's the thing when you say things, you can't take back what you've said so you better be sure you can live with the consequences. I feel kinda shitty now but hell I said it - I'm not even that sorry I'm just sorry I was rude about it. But that's life I guess!

And then she messaged me saying she had no idea what I had said and that we're fine. Seriously???

It's called retail THERAPY

Dress from ASOS - got it in a 12 was WAY too big and then had to go to Far East plaza to alter it for SGD30 but Choo Alteration Center did a kickass job - basically everything I'm buying is to go with this dress which I'm planning to wear after my last exam for a Christmas dinner party and then party-partying...

Bought this belt to cinch the dress, because it looks better from Forever 21 at Orchard XChange. Ten bucks - totally worth it.

Kinda boring but I got this Cyber Colors Zero Pore Primer from Sasa. I dunno if its any good but Cyber Colors is generally good and the Majorca Majolica one I have makes me look insanely white because it has SPF in it. Plus I'm so tanned now so it doesn't work. It was on sale from SGD25.90 to SGD20.72 so I thought that was cool.

Again kinda boring but I got a neutral-ish lipliner in Clover Pink from The Body Shop. I checked out Maybelline's and Bourjois' but I didn't like them. It's not super neutral nudy its more like pinky brown. It was SGD18.90 - no discount.

Ok fun stuff! Got fake eyelashes - also Cyber Colors. They were SGD8.90 and one free! I'm going to wear them so I can try and recreate Lisa Eldridge's pretty makeup look.

More fun stuff! I got the Bourjois Effet 3D Lip Gloss in Rose Gold. The idea is that it will go over the lipliner to be super shiny and pretty. Kinda expensive at SGD23.50. But it was recommended by Lisa Eldridge so...

And these GORGEOUS ear-rings are from DIVA. I saw them and I was like this is it! I love them, they were SGD17.

Bought these two t-shirts from Esprit today, I got them both at 20% off so it was supposed to be like SGD50 but then it was SGD40. I love them - the purple one fits well and the pink one is just so me...

That's it! Hopefully this is the end to my mad shopping urges :)

Epiphany Friday

In descending order of how huge the epiphany was:

5. I am born in the wrong era. I've been watching Pan Am for the past two days and no one can deny that I wouldn't look good in one of those tight-ass dresses and with winged eyeliner. The 1960s man. Those were the days. I mean not if I wasn't a white American though, because if I wasn't that would be shittay...

4. I am a hardcore procrastinator. As in I should have been writing my paper, but instead I was watching Pan Am. To the point where I had to do my final powerpoint presentation in under 30 minutes. It was good presentation though.

3. I can really eat a lot of food. It's just that majority of the time I have intense will power.

2. I really am happier when I don't like someone. I don't feel anxious or get that choking constricty feeling.

1. I look WAY better when I don't line my eyes the whole way round! It looks way better just on top because I think my eyes are getting smaller or maybe the rest of my face is getting bigger?? Is that two epiphanies?!?!

Watch Lisa Eldridge do no eyeliner on the bottom lid:

I'm sick and procrastinating

I have 3 final research papers due next week. A take-home exam due the Monday the week after and the last of my final research papers due that Wednesday. And I'm blogging. While transcribing in-depth interviews for another one of my final projects. Also I'm sick. Not I'm going to die sick but like low grade fever, painful throat, super duper tired kind of sick. Which I really can't afford seeing as I have basically the majority of everything due this next week.

I think that my blog doesn't have a focus, like its about me but not so much about anything else. Don't think I can be a cosmetics blogger - coz I've gone off that. Can't really do lifestyle because my life isn't exactly a baller lifestyle. Also I like clothes but I just don't think I'm one of those people who really understands how to wear clothes. Ok enough of that.

I don't have time to actually post so I'm just going to embed music I've been enjoying. Some of its quite shameful.

Ghetto Love - Karl Wolf - this guy is like MTL's answer to Shawn Desman. Not that an answer was needed or anything...


Wherever You Will Go - Charlene Soraia - so good


Bedardi Raja - Delhi Belly - this is good, kinda slow but nice


5 O'Clock - T-Pain feat Wiz Khalifa and Lily Allen - what a great remix of this song


Will blog later when time and mood permits!

I have not been blogging because...

I am drowning under a sea of reading
Bad decision-making (partying instead of studying)
and too many friends, when I'm used to... none.

Wish me luck!!